Silent Prayers

Silent Prayers

By Allie Marie

I don’t have the right to say anything.

You probably wouldn’t want to hear from me even if I did.

I’m a misstep in your memories;

one you didn’t bother to even say goodbye to.

And even with what strangers we are now…

and even with what you put me through….

my prayers during this time

are still with you.

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Fumes

Fumes

By Allie Marie

 

I wish I could understand,

but I can’t – how a dull fume

can turn wildly red as it

burns across your heart.

Such a small thing.

Such a rush for nothing.

I’m the water that won’t give

you any reaction.

Stranger –

I’ll let you burn

in the flames as I plan

my great escape.

 

Fog

Fog

By Allie Marie

I can see in the dark.

I can’t see in the fog,

even with the street lights on.

Driving on old roads.

Breaking on the cracks of the secrets.

Tearing up on the radio’s lullabies.

In front of your house now,

honey you don’t want to ride with me.

I don’t need to wait.

I already know it.

Tightrope

Tightrope

By Allie Marie

I dance on silver wires.

Threads play between my hands.

A single spotlight in a crowded room

stops to focus on me.

I guess this is a show and

not a game.

Oh you wish you could do

what I do, don’t you?

But, you make the ticket sales

so you’ll get by just fine.

Up here is a struggle –

trying to smile and trying to balance.

Somehow although

I always make it alright

Bystander

Bystander

By Allie Marie

 

Down on State Street in Albany,

I stand in faded light.

In a pretty powder blue dress,

I watch them dance in a sea of black and white.

I slowly lose control.

Teardrops turn to rainstorms.

I hope that they can’t see.

And the more that I try to stop,

the more that I can’t breathe.

There’s echoes screaming in my mind.

They have nothing to do with them.

And everything to do with my fears,

and what I am being told

I’m getting too old

to ever have.

I don’t want to be like this.

I want and need to smile for you.

I am happy for you,

I am.

But, I’m terrified

to live a life alone.

Sometimes

Sometimes

By Allie Marie

I remember how they smiled

like they knew something we didn’t.

Even though you disagreed with me,

you saw in me something different.

You saw the things

I didn’t want to see.

You were impulsive

maybe even reckless.

Driving with your heart

not your mind.

I was careful

a bit innocent.

I broke your heart

in meticulous lines.

I still think of you sometimes.

I hope you’re doing fine.

Taking Corners

Taking Corners

By Allie Marie

 

There’s the corner you never turned.

Don’t you know it’s dangerous?

Just to leave your mind

to walk in circles.

You deserve more than this;

a life of unchecked lists.

I don’t know if it means anything

when I say this.

Oh, chances are you’ll go back

and erase it.

Your heart is destined for greatness.

Let yourself make it.